Life is moving!

I feel like I am finally moving in the direction I want to be. I have always been a creative person and I feel like I can show that in photography. I love being behind a camera. I've just started and I hope to get my photography off the ground. I am doing as much as I can for free right now to practice, get comfortable with myself, my camera, and my editing before I start charging. I really feel as if I found my knack.

Madison is just growing right before my eyes. She is SO smart and walking so GOOD. She is doing really well with her signing. I truly believe in it. It has cut down fussiness SO much. She communicates with me so well with it. It has also helped with identify things and say what those things are by talking and signing.

Anyway, life is moving!

My little walker

I cannot believe Madison is walking already! She is now at new heights and getting into even more. She is a handful these days to keep up with. A part of my wants her to go back to crawling just because I still have the "baby". She is growing up way to fast. I am also glad she too. It got to be really annoying constantly hearing that there was something wrong with her or she is developing slow because she wasn't walking yet. I can't stand people who compare. It's ridiculous. Every baby is different and goes at their own pace. Madison just took her time. She was busy doing other things, like talking, teething etc.

We are officially in toddlerhood now !

Baby Fever...

I cannot believe that my little baby is 9 months old! People were not joking when they say "time flies" or "it goes by fast". It seems as if everyone around me is having babies. Friends online and various support sites, friends from church, friends in general, and I see prego women all over the place every time I go out in town.

I have realized that I miss being pregnant. I miss having a little new baby around. Despite the sleepless nights, I miss it. But I am not in a place in my life right now to have another baby. I really want to make it to one year in nursing Madison. That is so important to me. I would like to loose the baby weight and a little more. And financially, it would be dumb to bring another baby into the work right now.

I struggled to get pregnant. I have PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome). I was told I would never be about to conceive a child and then my little miracle came. I am so blessed to have Madison. She is the light of my life. Time is not on my side with PCOS. The older I get, the harder it will be to have a baby. I've been told that pregnancy reverses PCOS. But I don't know what truth there is to that.

A part of me feels like I need to go ahead and do it now and try and try because of the time factor and prove the PCOS wrong. I beat it once. What makes you think I can beat it again?

Anyway, I am sure my time will come for another baby. In the meantime, God has blessed me with a beautiful baby girl. I love her so much!

I need to get over this baby fever asap!!