Baby Fever...

I cannot believe that my little baby is 9 months old! People were not joking when they say "time flies" or "it goes by fast". It seems as if everyone around me is having babies. Friends online and various support sites, friends from church, friends in general, and I see prego women all over the place every time I go out in town.

I have realized that I miss being pregnant. I miss having a little new baby around. Despite the sleepless nights, I miss it. But I am not in a place in my life right now to have another baby. I really want to make it to one year in nursing Madison. That is so important to me. I would like to loose the baby weight and a little more. And financially, it would be dumb to bring another baby into the work right now.

I struggled to get pregnant. I have PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome). I was told I would never be about to conceive a child and then my little miracle came. I am so blessed to have Madison. She is the light of my life. Time is not on my side with PCOS. The older I get, the harder it will be to have a baby. I've been told that pregnancy reverses PCOS. But I don't know what truth there is to that.

A part of me feels like I need to go ahead and do it now and try and try because of the time factor and prove the PCOS wrong. I beat it once. What makes you think I can beat it again?

Anyway, I am sure my time will come for another baby. In the meantime, God has blessed me with a beautiful baby girl. I love her so much!

I need to get over this baby fever asap!!